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reflection

i think i am weird. or rather, i think differently from social norm.

it is especially now that i feel this way.

i do not appreciate exquisite hotel ballroom dinner to hold for our big day. i do not want a DnD event, i only wish for a small get together for close relatives and friends to share our joy.

i do not fancy being restricted to plastered walls and round tables. putting ppl in a restricted area makes me feel claustrophobic and it adds on to my stress level seeing soo many sardine heads.

 i do not connect with things like childhood montage nor morning highlights. i would rather DIY more creative/newer ideas than powerpoint slides/video cutting. i may end up building a physical photo story wall. who knows?

i do not understand the purpose of honeymoon. i only want a relaxing trip after a year of preparations and i would really prefer places with sun, sea and sand.

i have no idea how many people i will offend with this post but it is truly just what i have concluded for the past year.


on a side note, my husband-to-me is really a very amazing man. he cleans, does laundry and cook. but what amazes me most is he didnt run away from the bridezilla who worries and vex about everything. he had his fair share of bridezilla roar+claws and he remains right at the same spot.

i do think we can stick through the vows that we will be exchanging.. rich or poor, healthy or sick, pms or no pms, drunk or sober.. we will still be who we are, the relationship that we have built is stronger than before. he worries about me as much as i worry about him. he looks after me as though i'm his daughter at times and i nag at him as though i'm his mother. loving him is like a roller coaster ride and loving me takes a lot of patience.

the wedding is not the end, it's the start of another new era. the khoo era perhaps :)

ps: stalker husband-to-be, if u are reading this, do not check the time.. i will have enough rest.

depressed

i feel like throwing a huge tantrum and start smashing things around while crying my hearts out. but i can't.

7 months later...

yeap that is my time of absence here...

busy with the wedding preparations and work till i almost count of the time lost..

recently, there's random thoughts triggered by certain events. well, it's not that random thoughhts dont occur unless triggered but these event made me think further.


one of them is-how much do your friends worth?

this absolutely does not come from the thinking process of deciding ang bao monies to be given out during D-day. i was wondering about the groups of friends ppl keep in their social circle. there are ppl who could claim that the entire earth population are their friends, there are those who claimed to be your friend, there are ppl who has very little friends but are BFFs since they could remember, and there are 'surface friends'. of course the types go on and on and on...

friends like husband/wife would be willing to go through thick and thin with you, be there for you whether you are rich or poor, care for you as a healthy/sick person. however, to a certain point in time we will get into arguments/unpleasant moments with our friends, like we do to our families. but in the end, we still forgive and forget.

friends hear your sorrows, share your rantings, tell you the most unpleasant truths, feel your joy and happiness, bitch with you on the lamest things..

google may return billions of search results and of which thousands and thousands of the results carry the definition of friends. similar to all of us, we each have our own definitions and this could be the value we have invisibly tagged to our friends.

2011 is fading away

yes.. to my horror.. the year is slipping away just like that..

i should be proud of myself because i have ditched away tonnes of belongings to welcome the new year! if i could weigh my room i am certain that it is as light as a kid now.

2012

should i be looking forward to you coming?

joyful

it's an emotional night.

seeing sharon moving to the other phase of her life is filled with happiness.

she looks stunning tonight.

she really do.

so beautiful that i almost teared each time i see her at he ballroom.

to sharon:

i wish u happiness my dear friend/sister with all my heart.
u r one of the prettiest bride i have seen and u will only continue to shine even more with the new chapter in both ronald and your lives.
no words can describe how much blessings i have for you.
love u much much!

pain

screaming painfully from inside but there's no sound.

wake me up when sept ends

i need to straight things out.

to consider am i being too greedy.

to consider am i too bossy.

to consider y i feel that things were kinda different.