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Help X3

Help Help Help!!! Php codes are killing me!!! At work chiong codes since 11am, haiz still cannot solve he stupid thing. Damn frustrated, heng no kids or teachers around otherwise I really got no image liao.

I did blog for ytd but somehow when I click publish post it went to an error page, so I gave up retyping 5 paragraphs of blogging session. Manager is out, AGAIN. What to do, kill moi pls. Don't know when they planning to get another staff, because it's gonna be sept soon and soon my SIP will come to an end. Anyway, that's not for moi to worry. Now moi table is full of notes on php. Printed out every available thing on the webbie that can help moi solve the problem, however realise that it hasn't been much help to moi except taking up moi table space. I brought my own slippers to wear in the office, though suppose to be barefooted but the floor is damn dirty and cold. And everyone in KRTC is wearing one to avoid contact with the ice floor, so I decided to join them coz can't stand the floor here.

Attention to those who listen to supreme old chinese songs need ya attention! I'm looking for this song "Xiao Zhi" by Leo Gu Ju Ji. If u happen to have this song, pls pls pls send it to moi. A million thanks!

Don't want to know, don't wish to know..

Tired, very tired, damn tired, super tired, freaking tired, god damn tired!

Enough of that stupid word, this week is like living hell for me. Don't ask me what on earth happened because I don't even want to even think of it. I was on the verge of blewing up but I didn't and felt soooo stupid and dumb. The only sentence to describe all this is: "Stupid people, idiotic acts, unreasonable people and cannot make it behaviour."

Today was quite irritated by the deary boy. Ok, not quite but very because he chose the wrong time to disturb me. But still, I have to apologise to him because I told him to "fxxxed off" after being irritated. I'm not p.m.s-ing if someone is thinking of that as my tolerance level is hitting the limit soon that's why I'm behaving like this. Today is such a bad day that I guess the kids think that this nice "jie-jie" becomes a devil in a very short period of time. Yeah, first time in my life I've lectured soo many kids at one go. Trust me, it doesn't feels good. In fact, it's terrible. Think that one of the kid was quite startled when I scolded the boys for running to the toilet without taking into consideration their safety. Think really must think of a way to somehow let go of all the anger inside me otherwise the kids really will suffer. Haha, I think have to give them ice-cream next Saturday to compensate them. And lets pray the nice and easy-going "jie-jie" will be back by then.

Suddenly, miss school and all my friends so much. We are always having fun even when we are chiong for projects, tests or exams. I want to go back to school!! *weeps* Feel so sick and tired coding for the system, 1001 loopholes and a zillion errors for me to solve. I no longer can feel the motivation in me, can someone kindly give me the energy or motivation to move on? I will appreciate your help, really pls help me!

Oasis..

Listening to Oasis-Stand by me now.. I've always feel better that when I'm half-dead coz this song really perks me up but I cannot always listen to this song coz I'll get sick of it.. Haha.. It's my off day today and I'm rotting at home. Finally!!! Eversince SIP started, I don't really stay at home even if it's my off day and I really want to stay at home. However, I'm at home today!!!!! *crazy girl* Realise that I din blog for ytd here's what I did ytd:

25 Aug 2004, Wednesday
Reached my office at about 1245pm and the moment I step into the office the phone rang. I was still wondering to picked it because somehow I feel it's my manager butI heck it and picked it up. And I regretted, I was right it's my manager saying his fav line: "I need you to do me a favour...". Eversince that line my face changed, he was saying this, that and then that again. From that moment onwards I tell myself that I will not picked up the phone until I've finished all the before work stuff. Less than an hour later, this boy came in nad I was like saying Hi to my nightmare. Benjamin Loh is his name (dunno whether he'ss read my blog or nt haha). He's suppose to do his mock exams paper but he ended up listening to music, adding his name to my list of contacts on MSN than becoming my telephone operator and playing around with my phone taking pictures and adding his number to my cellphone. How auto can a boy gets? Now I know. When he finally left, another boy came in, Kenneth Cheng! By that time I was seeking help already. I don't know what I did to get this 2 boys buzzing around me. Haha, poor me! Then kids start flocking in and doing the same routine which is asking for sweets. But a whole container of sweets is taken by Kenneth Cheng (really wished he can see this then he'll start laughing at himself, how stupid!). Then, kids in the pri science class is getting noisy so does the rest of the classes and start to accuse dif class for nnoise pollution and come complaining to me. But I just close 1 eye bcoz everyone of you contribute to the noise so stop complaining!! So i keep it dragging till 930pm and yeah! time to go home. Waited almost 1/2 hr for bus number 9 den it started raining so went to Bedok Interchange to take 14 back home and by the time I reached home it's 1045pm. Cannot make it, took 1hr to get home and it's just from simei.

Later have to go chiong php deadline is really damn freaking near, have to finish it by all means man. Will be working on sat and I can go into the pri elementary eng class again. Fun is coming!!!

There goes my trust..

I don't know why people can break their promises just like that, don't they understand how other people place their trust and hopes on them? I really can't get it neither can I accept it. Haiz, what to do.. If I was informed of this news long ago, I'll blew up but don't why I din even have any reaction to it. Maybe I'm sick of all this nonsence and betrayal of trust thingy. I give up on all those funny stuff and just do watever i should be doing instead of getting pissed off. One of my grp mates decided to pull off from the FYP group, yes I'm angry but more to disappointment. I don't know why things just change like that, I'm pretty sad also. I thought I would start the "!*$%#$*" session when I heard that news however anger does not take over me instead disappointment does. Maybe it's just not meant to be and perhaps I should just pretend nth happens. That should make my life simpler and easier.
Time really flies, SIP is ending soon and Fyp is starting. My SAT test date is approaching also, 6th Nov just a day b4 my bdae. So Sianz.. haf to chiong bk until the eve of my bdae. Left only about a week + b4 my php system due, stress man. I've got so many things to change and code but I really dun1 to extend the deadline any further bcoz I'm so sick of it and I dreaded it soooooo much.
I'm behaving like a zombie ever since I came back from my uncle's funeral, think is bcoz I seriously lack of sleep. Ytd din even bother to talk, I just nod and shake my head. Quite lucky also, bcoz there's no parents coming in and no enquiries call. Now still feel like a zombie but at least I try to talk. My dear manager is coming to work late just like ytd. Why? I don't know, don't even bother to know or shld say nt interested to know.

Sunday nite..

Sunday night.. today is also Qi Qiao Jie aka Nui Lang Zhi Nu Jie(if still don't get it, forget about it..) coz it's the 7th day of the 7th month on the lunar calendar.. Got to c the Nui Lang and Zi Nu stars ytd.. Today really is sleep the whole day.. took off from work to attend my uncle's funeral.. His body is cremented in Mandai n thats the only place I know well. Why? Coz been there at least once a year, can say I'm a regular there.. Nth to be proud of actualli :P Came back at about near to 12pm.. First thing in mind is food coz got dragged out of bed at 730am n chiong there coz kinda of late liao.. So went there without eating anything.. After eating headed straight home was supposed to plan out my php stuff but in the end i fell asleep on the sofa, so slept from 1pm to 630pm.. den woke up bath eat again.. haahaa.. terrible habit man..
Finished listening to Jay's Vol. 5 album.. The lyrics are really gd and more chim den all the previous ones, one of my fav is Ge Qian track num 6. U ppl can check out the lyrics quite cool..

Haiz..

Just got back from my uncle's funeral wake... few more hours later I've to be there again.. Haf to reach there by 8am coz it's the last day liao. I'm sooo exhausted now but dunno why I'm sitting infront of the computer blogging. Suppose to stay at the wake for the night but I guess I can't tahan throughout the night and since it's super near my house, I've decided to get home, bathe and sleep at my own bed.
Did something quite sinful today. Yeah, gambling though not mahjong(suppose to play but no 'legs'). But don't worry the stakes r super small n I only lost 50 cents. Every Sim's family so called "gathering" will have gambling, especially Chinese New Year and funerals. Very extreme cases right..
Reaally falling asleep man, think better go sleep otherwise my mom will come out of her room n scream at me. :>

Shocked n sad..

Right now I'm really lost for words coz my 4th auntie's husband just passed away... Though I don't really like him but I'm still quite sad about his sudden death. Come to think of it, he's really gd to me since I'm young. Ever since my bro or I've started schooling we will frequent their place soo much to ask my 2 elder cousins about our school work, especially maths i think about 75% of the qns r maths. My bro n I would torture the turtle who is old enough to be our elder. He will give us ang baos during chinese new year and I don't think the rest of my cousins receieved one. He will buy sweets only for me and my bro will complain why he don't have 1 and snatched it from me. Have to go to my auntie's hse in the morning, actually I don't realli like going to funerals ever since my dad passed away. But I have no choice, it's just like compulsory, have to go, must go. Bo bianz.. go lor...
Don't understand why 1 could leave just like that.. Just like my dad, he left without saying anything nad I've just gave him a massgae 2 days before he died. Until now, I could still remember every single details on 22 Dec 1999. Dunno is unlucky or coincidence, Weihao's bdae fall on this day.
Today my boss asked me whether I wanted to extend my working period after my SIP. I told her that I will consider this and give her an ans. Though I always complain about my workload, the small office and the people that I'm working with or I've met, I do have feelings for this job expecially the kids there. They are devils that's the truth but they are also the ones who could drive my blues for the day away. Nt forgetting the cute Grace, Mattew, Alfi etc. Also, the adorable mom Mrs Ting who brought a big block of chocolate to my office today and will always be the one bringing to us. She's also the one offering milk to my manager and I every Wed. The teachers there are cool too. Mr Loke is the one i find most amusing. He always will have the word joker in his sentence, I don't why but it sounds quite hilarious with his actions.

Bored...

Actually I shouldn't be blogging now coz i'm at work. The super restricted place with birds flying into your office though it's located at the 6th floor. I'm suppose to work on the php system now, but dunno y i kinda resists doing that maybe I dreaded it so much. I'm alone now and there's mock exams going on in the room, but I'm stoning. I hate to stone like this bcoz no matter how much I stone when I'm back hm I'll still stone. There's something wrong with me also. I can't sleep well nor eat well, no matter how tired I am I still have trouble getting my eyes close n sleep. And though I'm super hungry, 5 min later I can't feel the hunger anymore. I think my life has started to turn upside down. Why? Don't ask me, I don't have the ans.

Ian Thorpe won the 200m freestyle men GOLD! haha.. that event was really a gd 1, a match between Ian Thorpe(Aus), Hoogenbun(Netherlands), Michael Phelps(USA) and another guy from Aus(can't remember the name). Ian Thorpe broke the Olympic record too, that's a pretty gd match compared to the 400m event. The plasma TV opp my office is showing the swimming events now, can't c a thing coz nv bring my specs. Sad, It's only 4+pm another 5+hrs to go. How to survive man..

i'm sooooo tired.....

I'm soooooo tired today.. Been feel like I'm on the verge of 'floating' in the office for 10hrs. My eyes are so exhausted that I dun really bother to maintain eye contact with anyone and I really mean ANYONE. haha.. I'm wishing for my off day though still got bout 3 days more. Really miss school soo much but i guess i'll start regretting when I'm back in school chiong-ing for projects. Humans! yeah, we as humans like to move our mouths too much that we tend to forget the importance of our mouths. There are better stuff to do besides cursing n swearing with our mouths, but isn't it too quiet if everyone in this world stop talking?

Olympics is here n along with it is the craze. It hit me too but I'm much more interested in the swimming event than any other events. The so called last big game for Ian Thorpe(Australia), at least he won the gold though he nv break the wrold record he set in Sydney 2001. Michael Phelp(USA) is another swimmer who is catching my attention. He set a new world record for his first event in the games and he sure can swim well. Both of them are able to gear up n down whenever they feel like, feel so jealous man.

Something I dun always wanted....

Finally I've got this thing going.. I gave up on the layout thing cause I'm really nt free to choose a better one... Busy n busy is wat I haf to say. Here's an update of what I've did starting from black friday:

13th Aug 2004
Went to work at 9am. I did the usual stuff like opening the doors, filling up the flasks with water, went to toilet to wash my mug den trying to focuse on my work but ended up msn-ing. haha, how fun can it gets man. After 10am, i've changed my position from customer service officer cum system enhancer to telephone operator. My boss put up an ad looking for another CSO(finally), so i've to take down their particulars n decide whether they shld come for interview on mon. Nearing 530pm this parent came in n start complaining when she claims she isn't. Well, parents~! Then left the office at bout 535pm n headed for my grandma hse at bedok reservoir.. By that time i was freaking tired n to my surprise i took 1 hr to reach their from simei. Today's suppose to be my grandma's bdae according to lunar calender. Was really rotting there, doing nth except eat, play cards n watch my mom play mahjong. So time passes like turtle racing n left at 11pm. Took quite some pics n i've uploaded it, can go to the link to c =>

14th Aug 2004
Woke up at 815am to prepare myslf to go register for SAT with weilin. haiz.... think shld be somewhere itchy den go take SAT. nearly $100 was turned into a few pieces of papers cool huh. took some time to find the stupid building, still can't imagine the only path to the building is so well-hidden and they expect ppl to find it. After the registration went to walk around in orchard but din really c a lot of things coz weilin got tution at 3pm so haf to do speed shopping. Bought Jay's album n a chinese novel. Been dying to get Jay's album since first day of release but afraid got another newer version, in the end i heck care n bought it.

Don't know when I started the habit of scribbling things on my organiser when i'm waiting for bus to go home from work. Wrote a lot of rubbish but mostly is just feelings that I had on some incidents encountered. Here's the recent one:
Suddenly got this wild idea: record down the acts of the most irritating parents, it all started when I saw this parent today. She is complaining about this teacher's teaching style n she says she's nt here to complain. Right, nt complaining. The daughter's eng teacher says she's a very gd girl in class but how can an angel daughter gets a devil mom? I feel sad for the teacher, she's a great teacher n kids luv her too. However, y can't parents luv the teachers too? that's really something to grieve about. If the teacher's teaching style is nt your cup of tea fine get her out of the class n shoo! dun criticise the teacher, teacher r humans too. U like it u stay u dun just pay up for the lessons n say sayonara. No one is stopping u ya noe?
Think i can compile those acts into a book n name it "The most unbelievable parents". haha.. =>