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geez..

i need my little getaway like now! work is draining me out and i realli have to fight the fatigue that has been building up since i-don't-know-when. so many things to do and as usual so little time. i need to cut my ot time and find my personal life back. i miss slacking in cafes. i miss the cliques talking rubbish and i could just sit back and laugh my lungs out. i miss the tai-tai sessions with lin. i miss the eat-plus-ranting sessions at 85.

i need a life.

on another note, went tomb sweeping ytd and as usual the crowd is urgh. super horrendous. with smoke everywhere and sun burning like mad. i wonder how can 1 dressup for such places (this rant came abt cuz i saw this lady putting makeup in the toilet at the columbarium). anywayz. i realize that i'm able to fight the emo part better this yr. most probably i've vented it out the previous night so for the whole day i can only feel sleepiness. but looking at his picture i know that i still miss him terribly. it's been almoost 10yrs since he's gone and it's always so hard to think back. i thought time could ease the pain. but it seems that i'm taking too much time to let the pain go away (or it just won't go away). i know that i have to wear a smile no matter what. cuz this is what he would want.

so i will nt let this emo-ness take control of me. i prefer myself with the smile =)

mc day

i am trying very hard to convince myself that i am not a workaholic

pre-monday blues rant

hmm.. i think eversince i started work all my schedules are like freaking pack.. i dunno y.. even when i took leave i still feel that i'm slp deprived. i really wonder y. i think i need at least 48 hrs per day else i think i'll be slp deprived 4va. haha. and for my apr weekends majority are booked. shld i feel happy for being bz?

anwayz my bank account gt depleted on thurs at the it show. 1 new cpu n camera. plus shopping n wateva expenses. i think i realli need the sugar dad proposal soon. haha. another easy option will be some1 pls confiscate my cards and lock me indoors until the day whr i don't feel so broke. (i think that will be like for eternity)

n now i'm feeling slpy again. maybe i shld buy a slping bag for office purposes. haha.

next stop: the comtech AGAIN. -__-"

e m o

i wrote something. but i decided to delete them.

work.eat.work.slp.work.

work is taking majority of my life away. so much to complete. so much pending. n so little time. seriously i hate to ot, but the colleagues part r making my life in the office much better. who else can make u smile like nobody biz in the office and the manager sitting opp u sometimes will wonder wth is this ger thinking?

sometimes i wish that i could be out of all this for a while. everything seems to be spinning and at times i can't really catch wats happening arnd me. i juz seemed so oblivious.

my main source of motivation nowadays r like chocolates n more chocolates. after my dosage i'm like exceptionally high, after that i'm like going into hibernation mode. talking abt chocolates. y is kinder surprise so freaking expensive now!?!?!? the surprise is nt from the inside lo, it is the price itself that gave me the surprise =( n i was thinking of buying it to surprise myself. how nice.

at least it's friday tmr! n i'm looking fwd to k this sat *smiles*

stop the thunder roar

ok.. i realized cycling can be very very tiring. finally went for cycling n i thought it would be fun since the hs ppl r going too. BUT. the weather kinda spoils the fun. the route for the day is like: lin's place -> mcd -> ski360 -> back to mcd (cuz i left my bottle there -__-") -> stuck in mcd bcuz of the heavy rain -> back to lin's place (in the rain)

well. at least my plan for the trip was accomplished. i planned to perspire all the toxic out of my body. i fall sick too easily nowadays and i've decided to do something abt it. so i think this trip is still fun =)

1 minor accident though. i "scratched" my left foot against the bicycle gear. now i've to figure hw to bandage it. it look too huge for normal plaster to cover. hmm..

tmr is monday. pure agony.