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Sunday...

tmr will be mon again..... arghz.... juz dun feel like working coz feeling kinda sick eversince i got the flu in the office...den all energy has been divert to the dog... bringing him out for a walk, cleaning his daily biz, cleaning his cage, cleaning him are such torture to me.. louis told me the fun part is coming but i juz can't see.. head is spinning again.. haiz...

4 more weeks b4 my pay comes in... a promise was made btwn my collegues that we'll haf cartel on our pay day.. how i wish the pay will be in next week.. yawnz.. the dog's barking woke me up today at 10am.. i wanted to slp till 12pm!!!!!!! haiz..... help...

Rust the cowardly dog...

there's a new member in the hse.. n tats rust, the jack russell... my bro's gf bought it on thurs and will be living with us... he is such a super duper active dog.. -_-" i haf no idea how to stop him from moving... he juz run n run n run... well.. at least he do his biz in the cage.. anywayz work is still like usual... nt much of a dif... too tired to type.. all bcoz of mr rust..

horrible..........

i'm beginning to hate my job!!!! job lobangs any1?!?! initially when i started work i was preety pleased with the work there.. BUT.. this horrible, irritating, idiotic guy spoiled everything on wednesday afternoon.... my supervisor was suppose to give me certain charts to be updated on the notice board.. as she needs to prepare the data b4 she hands it over i was literally free coz she said she had nth for me to do and i am to wait for the data.. and so i waited by reading.. then nightmare strikes.. this fucker came to my desk and scolded me for reading in the office and demanding to know why was i soo free.. and out of courtesy i explained to him in a super polite manner.. BUT he is deaf.. he juz dump my words in the rubbish bin and continuing blaming me as the big boss saw me reading and asked him why wasn't i doing anything.. he said that if i am so free i could go to other sections and help... FUCKER.. u think i'm that stupid?? i've done that the first week of work but i'm nt able to help with anything coz no1 is free to teach some1 who will only be helping when she is free.. and again i've tried to explain to him my difficulties however.. b4 i say anything he shut me up.. and i gave up arguing with him out of respect that he's one of the senior employees there..

so my day was crushed by that fucker... but i refuse to be angry for more than 1 day so i went to work this morning as per normal.. then bad news strike during lunch time.. my fren told me that ytd the moment i stepped out of the office he was bad-mouthing me to the whole office.. and one of the sentence was commenting that why am i so stupid to read a book so openly.. HELLO!!! it's nt as if i came to the office to slack.. i complete every work given to me in the shortest time and haf done it well.. i haf been responsible in everything i do and who the hell are u to comment on me?? and dun use ur rank to push ppl arnd! u r juz a small small tiny winy itsy bitsy supervisor of a minor section, u think u r so impt to the department????

anywayz.. i stil refuses to get pissed at him any longer.. so if u know me well u will know how guai lanz i can get.. decided to treat him like invisible man.. if there's invisible woman from fantastic 4 then he is invisible man from fuckers 4.. i acknowledge every1 in the office whenever i go but when i saw him outside the pantry i juz treat him as non-existence and walk to the toilet.. so i shall be guai lanz for another 1 1/2 months b4 my contract ends!!!

PS: i think i use too much of the F word but juz can't seem to find 1 decent word to describe Mr Invisible man... :P

it's friday man!!!

finally... the day i've waited for.. friday, the eve of weekends and the path to longer sleeping hours..haf been sleeping for only 7 hrs since started working... today's work is alrite.. finished all the data collection at 4.30pm but my supervisor is too busy to find work for me so i ended up rotting till 6.30 pm again... however, went over to help my friends in their work as they haf much much more things to do compared to me.. am really glad that i haf these 2 girls working wif me, although nt in the same section but still in the same big office.. can't imagine having lunch alone and does not haf any1 to talk to as some of the ppl there are super ya-ya.. our goal of the day will always be: where shall we haf lunch??? until now we've had food from long john slivers, TM foodcourt, the non-halal foodcourt at century sq, Hans and Mc... felt that tamp food is soooooo boring.. yes.. boring.. y? bcoz i've spent more than 3 yrs hanging arnd there?????? haha..

the 2nd toe on my right food is ballooning like nobody biz.. super painful.. mom said that it might due to the heels that i wear for work everyday.. hopefully it will stop swelling coz i haf to avoid any pressure on the toe as it hurts like hell.. if it's really due to the heels, i shld be feel a tiny winy bit of happiness coz friday is casual wear day!!!!! i shall go the office in t-shirt, jeans and slippers..... wahahahahahahaha!!!!!

4th day of work..

1 more day to weekend!!!! superb happiness!!! hahaa.. today is the 4th day of work at ocbc tampines... job position: polytechnic trainee bank officer... it's a 2 month contract thing.. so when the calender reaches 17 sep 2005, i'll haf to start looking for job again... lets see wat i did since day 1..

day1: report to the HQ at 9am.. reach the tampines office at 10am.. everyone in the office is sooooooo busy that i was totally ignored until lunch time... and when lunch time is finally over, i was told to did up this analysis of OT time for dif sections using pivot table.. PPl FAMILIAR RITE!!! pivot table leh.. haha.. anywayz.. BI distinction nt fake one.. collected the data for 1 1/2 yrs from one huge pile of papers and finished it in less than half a day.. when i told my supervisor she was: huh??? so fast ah??? and the first thing come to mind was: am i suppose to take more time to finish it? anywayz was told to complete a couple of adhoc duties inbtwn.. end of day 1..

day2: report to work at 9am.. but work doesn't start till 10am.. as usual no1 is free to entertain me and the computer does nt haf internet access.. haiz... so finally some1 told me wat my job scope was.. i was attached attached to the investigation section under payment operations.. the main job of this section is when clients performs remittance and for some reason the money either went missing or something happened to it.. the section would haf to investigate.. well.. i'm nt investigating but to help in their work.. when investigation was carried out, the sectin will charged for their services.. and i was thought how to withdraw money from their account, record in the GL account and how to use various system.. and i can assure u i dun like the system bcoz the various system are not link together.. haiz.. imagine the num of times my collegues haf to run btwn dif workstations.. and i finish my work at 4am and start rotting till 630pm..

day 3: as usual work started at 10am.. my supervisor finally gave me work!!!!!!! data collection and put it into excel.. that lasted throughout the day but it's nt done yet...

day 4: continue wif the data collection and by the end of the day i have typed in millions of numbers.. i can type on the number pad without looking at it or the monitor screen.. counted the num of rows i haf input at the end of the day: more than 2000 rows and still counting.. tmr shall finish that up and wait for more work..

got to know more ppl at work and 2 of them are my lunch khakis... these 2 girls are fun ppl to hang out wif and one of them is very gd at suan-ing ppl.. haha... but i will always combine wif her to suan the other girl.. opps!!

anywayz still long long away from my pay day coz i've missed this month pay day... and mr leow has extorted one meal out of my pay... will try very hard nt to remember it.. hahaha... need more mp3s to accompany me during work!!!!

Guilty

ytd had a super guilty day.. the first guiltiness come from nt attending my own graduation ceremony.. reason y i din attend: out of the soo many cliques only jiawen went.. those who did nt want to attend has dif excuses: dun1 to wear formal la, dun feel like attending la, dun wan to attend at all.. hmm.. for me? bcoz nt much ppl going so rather go shopping..

and yes the second thing to guilty abt: shopping.. lets see wat i've bought from ytd trip:
1-earrings from forever 21
2-umbrella from espirit
3-top from mango
4-heels from anna nucci
5-straw bag from the shop in edge

well.. did had a wonderful day shopping wif lin n celine but my pocket nt very happy.. haha.. spent money like flowing water.. and tmr i have to buy mirror for my room.. finally, i can get a mirror.. it juz doesn't seems rite when a room has a mirror missing.. :P

finally..

my comp is up and usable again!!! the windows got corrupted so spent abt 2 days without computer, finally fixed it at 2am.. u muz be thinking i'm crazy who repairs the comp in the middle of the night??? i think only me.. haha...

graduation is in 2 days time and work is starting in 5 days time.. woah.. how time flies...

happy birthday to jiawen!!!!

july is a pretty bz month.. with soo many ppl having their birthdays fall on this month.. y parents like july soooo much?? hahaa... nth much to talk abt.. still waiting for photos to be uploaded and sent by someone.. hopefully she's free and din forget abt it... :P

well well well...

got to meet leen, na and la today.. it's been like how many donkey years we went out together.. and yes.. the girls are bitching again.. well.. shared a lot of stories and memories today.. ppl who used to be school/class mates had major changes in their lives(got married and had a kid, ppl who had a change of gender preference) while some juz disappeared into thin air.. amazing isn't it.. how time can change one's life... glad that we are still contacting each other even though we dun see each other that much.. knowing each other for 7 years and still counting... ah... how time flies... :P

chin chin has a job! yes yes.. i am no longer unemployed and finally i've managed to get a job at OCBC.. will only start the job on the 18th this month.. so i shall cherish this week of freedom and slack more b4 work starts.. :P

it's juz nt my day...

lousy day lousy mood.. everything juz seems sooooooooooooo horrible to me today...

behind these hazel eyes - Kelly Clarkson

well.. had no idea how to start the post for today.. juz stuck staring on the keyboard and hitting the backspace key once and again... although my grandma had passes away for more than a month now.. ppl are still missing her very much.. ppl like my cousins and me.. their missing of her made the memories come back..

still remember that the last time she was admitted to CGH because of mild stroke.. i went to visit her right after sch.. due to my crave of chocolate milk tea.. took the bus to east point mall before walking to the hospital.. when i reached there.. overheard my mum saying that grandma can't recognise much ppl.. so she asked her whether she noes who am i, her reply gave me such great relief.. she does recognise me after all.. den seeing me drinking the milk tea.. she asked that if the drink is cold.. and i said yes.. then she said she wan some too, suddenly i felt that i've such adorable grandma..

she once stayed at my hse when i was in sec 3... unlike my grandfather(father's father), i was really comfortable having her staying with us.. as she slept in my room, each morning when i went in to get my stuff.. she would say in teochew: "qiu xue xiao liao ah?".. and i would 4va reply her with my still sleeping voice"uh........" when i came back from sch i would greet her, and when i'm late sometimes she wouls ask y am i so late... she once told me during dinner time that in that afternoon, my father came to "ka jiao" her.. haha.. my naughty dad 4va like to tease my grandma even when he's no longer arnd.. had a gd laugh when she told me that..

many ppl din noe that the first cigarette that i've lighted for someone is for my grandma.. she was weak tat time but that doesn't stop her from her daily dose of tar... she already had a maid tat time but she was busy in the kitchen.. so only left me n her in the living room.. then tats when i've lighted a cigarete for someone...

i think there's a lot of reasons y my cousins are missing her so much.. from the food she prepares for us every weekend to the memories that we had eversince we were born... but i guess grandma doesn't wish that her grandchildren would remember her each time by crying.. i dun mean that we shld celebrate or something but at least miss her in some way tat she could feel at ease...

maybe the way i think is kinda dif.. but i do tear for her.. eversince my dad passed away i told myself to be strong.. it could be hard in the beginning bcoz u can nv stop missing tat person.. eventually u will learn how to handle ur emotions.. i rather my feelings to slave for me than i slave for them so that i've lesser pain.. so let us embrace the future... jia you jia you jia you!!!

happy bdae..

juz came back from xris 21st bdae celebration @ seragoon bdae country club.. that place was soooooooooo far.. my god... sick on the train n bus till my butt hurts.. haha... the food was nt bad.. our host was great.. but too bad din throw her down the pool.. hehe.. small incident happened but guess it's really nt for me to poke my nose in it..

happy 21st bdae to Xris!!

also, Happy belated bdae to mommy!!! (her bdae was ytd.. hehe)