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no sch day... Wednesday, May 10, 2006 10:50 AM finally manage to steal some time off work to blog.. recently had this feeling that everything is falling apart slowly... can't seem to control things that used to be under control.. at times i feel that i've tried too hard to do things my way and perhaps that's y i'm getting rather hostile towards certain things/behaviours nowadays...
i wish i'm a child again... so that i don't have to bother abt surviving in the real world... everything is taken care of by my parents.. it's so tiring being an adult, there are so many things to vex abt.. work, money, qualifications, relationships are all in the stupid list.. i don't like to "theory" of "u work because u need the cash".. it's like a stupid cycle, first u ended up finding a job because u need money, then when u start working u can't stop because the demand for money is like an infinite loop.. even if u quit, u'll ended up searching for another job because u run out of cash... i dreaded this cycle but there's nth i could do as i'm trapped in the cycle too.. working for almost a yr without any proper "my" time excluding public holidays and medical leaves tells me that i shld put a stop for now.. i've decided to quit my job at ibm.. was contemplating for almost a week before i made this decision on monday... for now, i'll have to wait for my new supervisor to come back from her leave and "ta-dah" i'll be out of ibm hopefully by next week.. hopefully there's not much implications as i've had done the hand-overs for my previous position.. as for my new position, not much has been taught to me as from wat i see they don't really need me at all.. my boss had me there because he was kind enough to let me earn extra cash for another 1.5 months.. i personally appreciate his efforts to help me but i really need a break for myself and of coz for my exams... also, ting has left for new jersey ytd.. din get to send her off because of my class.. i guess she's still on the plane now with her friends.. was so envious that i "request" to go with her by hiding in the suitcase.. haha.... it's ok to pay for the extra luggage weight thingy.. i'm sure it's much cheaper than paying an extra airplane tix.. hehe.. of coz she rejected my kind offer thats y i'm still here blogging... =P |