today is the end of my 2nd test paper and i feel like cursing and swearing (although i did that right after my paper, i still do now). feel so disappointed with the papers(both ERM and BI), feel damn sucky about the questions and the scope being covered in the tests. i just can't find one word to describe that feeling i had when i saw the paper. for the first time, i really felt that i'm in deep shit and i fear what's awaiting for me.
i guess none of us expected that this kind of questions will appear in the tests. really don't want to mess up my last semester and leave the school with average grades. i just can't take it, maybe it's my pride or even my ego that i never like the feeling of losing. defeat is a very harsh word in my dictionary. i wan to leave this school with results that i really strive hard to achieve and it looks EXCELLENT not something which is AVERAGE. i need the results to get into Uni, though i know it is damn hard to get a diploma with merit.
this semester is really too short for us as everything is too compressed and it's really hard to follow the expected pace. i could hardly remember when was the last time i had splet for more than 8 hours. eversince school started it's just school and school and school.
ain't really glad that chinese new year is approaching coz i don't feel a slight happiness in the season especially when datelines are soooooooo near. i guess i'll be floating around when the deadlines approach me and it's not the line that is dead it's me.
i really need to runaway, HOLIDAY~~~~~ i need it.. anywhere will do, someone just bring me out from this place!