Happy 19th Bdae to me!
Had a really bad start for the eve of my birthday. The SAT is really a killer and I can foresee the results. Now I really know why I'm in poly, it's not because I flunk my history but it's because I can't stand doing the same thing for a very long period of time. I didn't see any motivation when I was in secondary school, everything is spoonfed to me. What I do is I just shut my mouth up and listen to the teachers trying to explain whatever is in the textbook. I'm never a theory person, words confuse me and give me headache. That's why I love playing with numbers like accounting or statistics. Because there's a sense of satisfaction when I managed to balance a P&L statement or solve a maths question. Secondary school life for me really is spending 4 years with minimal motivation.
Realized that I didn't do anything for the fyp meeting or to plan any, felt quite bad because I think time is running out and I'm slacking around. Suddenly, I feel so busy and can feel pressure knocking on my door. Bad sign.. Haiz.. What to do..
Am so tired now as I had only 5 hours of sleep for the past 2 days. but my barin is full of my FYP. Thinking about this, thinking about that. Hopefully I'll get a mental block when I go to bed, so that I can sleep peacefully.