Give me back whatever suppose to be mine..
Somehow I feel lost.. Don't ask me the Why qns, I just feel that I have messed up my life during my SIP period. So many things undone, so many things not even started. Suddenly feel so disappointed in myself, this is so unlike me. Maybe that's my change during this period. People around me either got attached or separated, I was telling my friends they won't see much changes in me but I have seen it myself. My priorities in life are declining and came trumbling down. I don't know what does this mean, maybe I'm just lost for this spilt second and I'm well the next. Trying to teach myself how to pick up things like before again, feel like a juvenile. When I stop and look around, I feel that things are different, so different and fear start to arise within me. Just feel that I'm not as happy as before, someone seem to have came to me and take away my happiness.
Feel that the pace here is too fast and competitive, I can feel that I'm suffocating sometimes. Tried to break free of everything but ended up getting hurt. Well, that's when I was still young and ignorant. Now I don't have the courage to do so because there's commitment towards my own life and most importantly my family. Think someone asked me before whether I will consider migrating my answer is I would like to but I won't do it because I have my strings attached here. Maybe I should find a map that could bring me out of this maze once and for all, also to stop me from being lost again. :)
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